my english.. is going down the drain, too!

i seriously think my english have deteriorated. 

Its so bad that i cant even write a decent english paragraph for my personal statement. 

wtf. 

i know, i know. its supposed to be damn easy cause its like an essay to introduce oneself. BBUT....
I fail.

:((

i've been thinking to form beautiful sentences just as it came easy when i wrote essays in highschool or whatnots. However, this is especially difficult to write, since its about ARCHITECTURE & ME.
Gee. i think that would make a great movie title, like Marley and me. *lol*
All i could think of is negative points because i do NOT have any good starts.

Its being so emotional that i seriously think i'd easily kill any chances by having the admission staff rushing for the "decline" stamp while registering "extreme emo freak!"

...just read on...

:((

See i only took ART classes in kindy (when i was the only STAR whereby i always gets prizes for even the most simply done artwork, let me lc just this once please. *angel*) cause... when i got into primary 1, in lick hung. focus was bought AWAY from Art classes. I know there are "ART CLASS" on the schedule, but seriously i do not remember doing anything for it. I think the whole experience of ART in my SIX years in lick hung, could be compiled into less than half a year. If i rmb rightly there were attempts in my first year, then the continuous years were just only that one time in N years when they have "art competition" which of course would be won by teachers pets. I am serious. Lick hung is the most bias school i can ever imagine and i still hate it with disgust. cause i'm a poor performance student, who is outshined in every aspect that she's gone psychotic to even start a paragraph of hatred at every mention of that school. *gasp* zhong zi damn sad lah, my primary school years.

see, i was that poor performance and not to forget a VERY lazy one. which drives the teacher up the wall because i was that lazy. i seriously hate homeworks. i never wrote those spelling things like ejaan and sen zi etc. which was why my bm was that bad and my chinese was never good. but i wasnt that bad altogether. even without homework, i would not fail without an attempt. *beams* which was why i always thought that homeworks are bs*. oh of course i was relieved when i entered secondary. relieve at the point that homeworks are unnecessary, and even more relieve that I AM FREE FROM LICK HUNG! WOOHOO! :D:D:D

ANYWAYS, back to the main point of being emo... my interest in Art was overpowered because.. being under HARDCORE CHINESE EDUCATOR LICK HUNG. Art is pointless. so they, eyyy, i actually rmb something like art class being a "free period" where they teach somemore math or make us do more "homeworks" [was it so ammie? yan??]. Which was why i totally forgotten bout it. until i came into Sec 1. when suddenly i was like "WOW. we have art classes!!" like a REAL ONE! like when we learn bout technics and etc, and we have to wrap our art book in fancy wrapping paper or.. just DIY the whole cover. which was damn cool ok? i still rmb the one i had. which was obviously Do-It-Yourself. and i did it for a whole day, and was damn effing proud of it. cause its like the FIRST masterpiece since kindy days. wtf. and of course mine was DIY, therefore it was ONE AND ONLY. *beams*

but anyways that was only in Sec 1, cause I learned new things, and they were repetitive in Sec 2. totally pointless again. so i took my Sec 1 book, revamp the cover and handed in and still scored well. wtf. malays are... very easy going. no? lol.

So in conclusion that was all the experience i had with ART. until Sec 5. where i took painting classes just to ensure my score in SPM which of course IS expected. [I dont like doing unsure stuff.] but i did not continue, because i totally hate classes. i dont know what is wrong with me, having extra classes depress me. I have the least tuition classes among all siblings and cousins. but i scored pretty damn well on that effort. :D:D wtf. lol.

Then, my interest in Architecture begins when I was... i think 15,16(?), our family adapt a new hobby of going to project launches around KL, PJ, and Penang. every other weekend. :D

And i took a fond in home designs. there were ones where i could totally move in at ease. and there are ones that size wise is ideal, but needs renovation which totally means its layout is shitty. and surprisingly, there were more of the latter than the former. which leads on to my determination to fix the ratio by pursuing to be a key influence in home designs. :D:D:D 

of course there are IDs. which i adore too. but if an AR comes out with a perfect layout, there's minimal need in ID, unless well you want to refurnish the finishes. no? 0:)

Oh, of course thats not all the research i've done on. i have also been to time square launch, some other mall launch in somewhere i dont know, and commercial garden launches. but its boring. because these are just merely plans of empty spaces. like its so direct you dont even need a layout. just state the buildup area + number of rooms + number of toilets and security measures then you'll be good enough for clients. IT IS THAT DIRECT. which further enforce my interest in home design and only that. :DD

...

and i'm out of points.

:(

and i'm getting bored by myself, again.

*continue being emo*

HOW TO MAKE ME SOUND MORE INTERESTING?????

I'm serious, anyone who could help me with this would win a meal from me!