hehehehehe. i LOVE wintsen!

it has been awhile since we talked. :)

and i was pretty much done ranting bout job and resignation and a "friend"'s respond to it. 

he was in a rush for class.

and he wrote this!

wintsen 2009 says: (10:14:28 PM)brb.
wintsen 2009 says: (10:14:31 PM)ill get to class first.
wintsen 2009 says: (10:14:34 PM)ill bring my laptop.

heeheehee. damn cute i find. lol.

:)))

*feeling all better~

I lost weight. not cool.

during cny i was weighing 37.8kg.

yesterday i weight 37.1kg.

it isnt cool.

i feel tired all the time.

and work's shit. they dont wanna give me a raise.

its depressing. 

and my weight isnt doing any help.

erase that, i think me not eating isnt helping my weight, and my mood.

but i couldnt eat. its just so sad. to think bout quitting this ridiculously low pay of monument-ing profession.

is architecture really that worthy?

would i be doing the right thing leaving it for now?

seriously in architecture, there is no AGE-limit. so does it matter if i pursue it later?

youth is slipping anyways, at the pace that we're always stressing for more time.

ok i think i should stop rambling.

i'm just upset. :((

anyone wanna go tenji/jogoya with me? i need to gain weight!! :(((

4 in the morning.

its the first time i dreamt bout that dear boy...

and it wasnt pleasant at all.

...

*dream*- We (the JessTwins, Liyin and me) were shopping at some new mall. And right outside Osim, we were laughing crazily just as we would when the Jesstwins' around. Then after some time, the twins' nanny(?) sudden came from the shop opposite and nagged them to get home to do chores. i'm guessing some last minute packaging before they leave for aus(?) It was really a bummer, cause we intend to leave already, this suddenly nag-gy nanny is really unnecessary. just then Qing called to ask me to pick up lucky from the groomer. and that he have not eaten for the whole day. I saw him at the doggie zone - it was a 2 floors play area for dogs, with a playground-size spiral stairs to connect the levels. he was on the upper floor, right at the edge of the spiral stairs, he was a mini schnauzer. I got some food and treats from the shop and encouraged him to come forward. but he just wouldnt come down, apparently afraid of the stair. so i went in to him instead. along the way friendly little dogs came and i gave them a little treats each. it was a little more than half gone when i reach that dear boy, i was so happy to see him again, as he was to me, he's still the same, despite the schnauzer look. with just a tad bit quieter than he usually is, as if he's afraid of something. i placed the remaining food infront of him and encouraged him to eat, still, he dare not move. then out of the corner of my eyes, i acknowledge a mean looking real size pincher, on full-alert, radar especially on him. I was instantly protective, grabbed lucky and the food, turned and run down the spiral stairs as gallopy fast as i could because it was built for doggy/kids size. It was a tough one but i made it to the door. it was half close. Just as i whisk it open in a rush, i plan was to grab on the knob and close it back immediately, which i missed cause i was in such haste i over-threw the door ajar. Which now place me in an ultimate exposed position, just right for that pincher to get me bulls eye. I turned to check where have that pincher reach. he was just a couple steps more. i fiddled desperately to grab on the knob. one step away. i got it and desperately close the door. i was only half way there when the pincher sneaked through the more than half closed door diagonally and roughly bit him out of me. he screamed. I was shock to tears. trying to get him back from harm. my vision blurred, i could only see the vague shape of the 2 dogs, lucky in another's mouth. I simply grabbed to the blurred lucky, but the pincher was firm on it. i couldnt get lucky without any tug-a-war experience. and each time, i lost.. because when ever i touch him, the pincher would go crazy and swings his head just as a dog would, trying to keep his bone when someone's trying to take it away. the whole swinging thing hurts lucky alot and thats when he screamed even more. My vision got blur-er and blur-er till i could see no more, but just a grey river....*dream*

the other part of the dream before i meet lucky isnt nice either.

(its a story-dream.)

*dream* i was degraded to the kembara again. all subang roads have been poorly maintained, and suddenly our house planning are w.r.o.n.g. i was going through the small roads in a neighbourhood, inconsistance of the terrace house end lots force me to swivel to avoid car crash, plus the extremely poor roads were filled with rough gravels. very very rowdy. It wasnt a pleasant drive at all. just a little after i've joined the main road. i saw peggy, stop to give her a ride. but the minute i turned another corner, a cop was on me, and i was penalty-d for chewing on gum...*dream*

ITS FEB.18th AGAIN!!!

teehee.

i duno how magnificient my changmin reciever is. 

i never miss feb18th!!

and i'm usually giddy and joyful throughout the day on autopilot. just because.

:D:D:D

isnt today such a good day??
:D:D:D

you must have known why.
:D:D:D:D

CAUSE ITS CHANGMINNIE DAY~~~
the day of the BEST power, MAXimum forces, and merely.. CHANGMIN energy! <33

I am a super retard when it comes to changminnie <33 

teeheehee. :P 

oh.. you dont know actually? 

>:{ hmp!

its alright~
no grumpy retards around on feb18.!
cause everything's cool on changminnie day~~
teeheehehehe.. *falls*

what did i do today???

nothing much... except work. 

which was still fun eventho the pay's ridiculously LOW, and well, yea, a stupid hella BIG load of work for such titsy bitsy pay. !uck!

[seriously its stupid. we have "OT" E-VE-RY-DAY. and they say it so nicely "we dont have ot, because thats our job, and our job is to get everything done, it would be your fault for not having it done on time. *smiley face* //sf: !uck you, ur job is more than moderate!!]

and "un"-lucky kent got off work. :))

its soooo worth the celebration!!

[no i did NOT "" it wrongly, and yes its worth the wine, cause i seriously think he's lucky, instead of un-lucky getting off work. Its nothing to be talk about, but i'm so happy, eventho he's upset :/ + its the only THING of the day...]

now pull the cork!

*celebrates*

This is the best of twilight! ;)

I got this site from suetli's blog.

Today, my girlfriend dumped me proclaiming she wanted someone more like her "Edward". I asked her who Edward was. She held up a copy her "Twilight" book. She was talking about a fictional vampire. FML.

hahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahha...

hahahahahaha. i love emails! *falls*

Murid : Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi sahaja? Petang dan malam awak doakan saya tak selamat?

Murid : Selamat pagi, petang dan malam cikgu!

Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh orang! Kata selamat sejahtera! Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid : Selamat sejahtera cikgu!

Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik. Hari ini cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat, lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid : Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu : Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid : (senyap)

Cikgu : Pandai!

Murid : Bodoh!

Cikgu : Tinggi!

Murid : Rendah!

Cikgu : Jauh!

Murid : Dekat!

Cikgu : Keadilan!

Murid : UMNO!

Cikgu : Salah!

Murid : Betul!

Cikgu : Bodoh!

Murid : Pandai!

Cikgu : Bukan!

Murid : Ya!

Cikgu : Oh Tuhan!

Murid : Oh Hamba!

Cikgu : Dengar ini!

Murid : Dengar itu!

Cikgu : Diam!

Murid : Bising!

Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!

Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu : Mati aku!

Murid : Hidup kami!

Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!

Murid : Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!

Murid : Rajin kami belajar cikgu!

Cikgu : Kamu gila!

Murid : Kami siuman!

Cikgu : Cukup! Cukup!

Murid : Kurang! Kurang!

Cikgu : Sudah! Sudah!

Murid : Belum! Belum!

Cikgu : Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?

Murid : Sebab saya seorang pandai!

Cikgu : Oh! Melawan!

Murid : Oh! Mengalah!

Cikgu : Kurang ajar!

Murid : Cukup ajar!

Cikgu : Habis aku!

Murid : Kekal kami!

Cikgu : O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!

Murid : K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!

Cikgu : Sudah, bodoh!

Murid : Belum, pandai!

Cikgu : Berdiri!

Murid : Duduk!

Cikgu : Saya kata UMNO salah!

Murid : Kami dengar KeADILan betul!

Cikgu : Bangang kamu ni!

Murid : Cerdik kami tu!

Cikgu : Rosak!

Murid : Baik!

Cikgu : Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!

Murid : Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu : *Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya keluar.

HAHAHAHAHA.

This so reminds me of the muka-tembok story.

*LOL*

teehee. ;)

must rmb the day he "figures-out" the symbol: <3

:P

i love how he wants to see me everyday.

i love how he'll get upset when i didnt hear the phone.

i love how he'll show up at my every call.

i love how he'll try his best to fulfill my every request/wish.

i love how he'll always drive even though he's tired cause i hate driving.

i love how he'll always order a WHOLE table just to make sure i'll be full enough.

i love how cheeky he'll be trying to get cheesy lines like ily and imy out of me.

lol.

Love u too BEE.

:))

Just like any other day when i feel alone..

and didnt mind so.

i'm such a sad sad person. 

i can be yippidee-yippadee-do one second~

and melo-i'm-so-yellow the next.

[no, i dont know where did that come from, but it just rhyme :)]

thus today, is one of the days when i feel like being home.

i dont know if thats a good thing, cause i reject all invites on days like these.

and this ticks mr.wtf off in particular kao-kao.

-___-

and on days like this, i would care less to even entertain anyone, including him.

=____=

haih. how?

bored...

& hungry.