joking!

:P

teehee.

aint it nice i'm in an extremely good mood today??

despite pms-ing.

:D:D:D:D:D

anyhow, the weather's so grey recently, it reminds me bout the tree i 'planted'...

TADAAA~

after such a looooong looooong time no?

so, how do you like my new mural?

I suppose i could take up moss-art, and make this 'tree' live-able... maybe?

:)

muaxxx! 

(cause she loves everyone tonight)

I looooooooooove sharing emails!

yippadee yappadee woo~ :D:D:D

I manage to restore my password. :D:D:D

and i realize gmail is a very very VERY secure provider. :D:D:D 

it was quite a hassle, wouldnt save lifes during an emergency kinda hassle. but its really good! :D

so people dont lose ur PW!

wtf.

anyway, lets get back to sharing mails!! :)))

mwehehehe..

A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks.

The husband, although very much in love, couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies.
So, he said to his new wife, 'Honey, I'll be right back.'
'Where are you going, honey bunch?' asked the wife.
'I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I'm going to have a beer.'
The wife said, 'You want a beer, my love?'
She went and opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer brands from 12 different countries: Germany, Holland , Japan, India ,etc.

The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was, 'Yes, lolly pop...but at the bar....you know...they have frozen glasses...'
He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying, 'You want a frozen glass, puppy face?' She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer, so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.

The husband, looking a bit pale, said, 'Yes, tootsie roll, but at the Bar they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious... I won't be long, I'll be right back. I promise. OK?'
You want hors d'oeuvres, poochi pooh?' She opened the oven and took out 5 dishes of different hors d'oeuvres: chicken wings, pigs in blankets, mushroom caps, pork strips, etc.

'But my sweet honey... At the bar... You know...there's swearing, dirty words and all that...'
'You want dirty words, Dickhead? Drink your fucking beer in your Goddamn frozen mug and eat your motherfucking snacks, because you are Married now, and you aren't fucking going anywhere! Got it, Arsehole?'

So he stayed home............

 
 
........and, they lived happily ever after.

okay, THE END for today's post. have a nice day, bye.

ONE MORE DAY!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Mr. WTF would be back from the land of merlion in a day!!!

*giddy*

k lah, i know s'pore isnt that far, and he's only been there since.. i think monday? or was it tues?oh yes, it was tues. something stupid happened on monday. pity that poor boy. :/

BUT!! tomorrow, would be 11th day since I last met him.

[that is IF he's not too tired to meet me tomorrow.]

& its pretty awesome, this short time apart, cause i wouldnt have feel what i'm feeling right now, given anytime before.

Its really something cause... i duno, its a very jumbled up feeling; it felt wrong and right at the same time!

*lol* it is a little 'psychotic' i would say: i feel horrible cause i miss him so bad, but the next second i'd stop missing him cause i am disgusted with myself for being this dependent for someone (eww!), and the next minute i'm totally retardsmiley knowing that it'll be just x days away till his home!

I SWEAR, its so mentally teasing, its both the BEST and the WORST feeling, missing someone.

I think most of you could relate to the "worst" of missing someone. 

[cause we just dont usually appreciate stuff till its gone. admit it! :P]

but have you realize it's also best, cause i believe if i'm not in the game anymore, i'd miss this part of missing someone OR having someone to miss. *lol* do you get what i mean? IT IS MIND-TEASING!

anyways. no, i do not miss him 'just because' i'm a super glue gf. (i'm not, really)

Its just sooo exciting cause i'd be able to see him this weekend after ALMOST two weeks apart.

[k lah, its no big, we usually only have our dose of seeing each other once a week, and i could go with not talking to him for 2 days on a not even fighting phase. i would be the least romantic/sweet gf one could have. mr.wtf IS complaining. lol :P]

still, cant wait! ;)

love ya'all!

I'm sure this would declare war!

but its so funny i MUST share!! :D:D:D:D


<.another email.>

How to wash a toilet

1. Put the lid of the toilet up and add a half cup of pet shampoo to the water in the bowl.

2. Pick up the cat and soothe him while you carry him towards the bath room.

3. In one smooth movement, put the cat in the toilet and close the lid. 

[You may need to stand on the lid.]

4. The cat will self agitate and make ample suds. Never mind the noises that come from the toilet, the cat is actually enjoying this.

5. Flush the toilet three or four times. For 'power-wash' and 'rinse'.

6. Have someone open the front door.
[Be sure that there are no people between the bathroom and the front door.]

7. Stand behind the toilet as far as you can, and quickly lift the lid.

[The cat WILL rocket out of the toilet, streak through the bathroom, and run outside where he will dry himself off.] 

9. Both the toilet bowl and the cat will be sparkling clean.



Sincerely yours,

The Dog 

Departure: I think i'm getting better at it...

To everyone who was concern:

Thanks. Thank you so much for those comforting words, knowing that you're still listening reading made me feel sooo much better, words cant describe.

Thank you shann,

hahaha. you made me laugh, no its not pointless. its true. i get what you're saying. i guess i'll be seeing you in melb "if all goes well" now. :DD

Thanks kacy,

its been soooo long! haha. i hope its just a moment of lost and i get my grip FAST!

20 years old is enough to decide if i wanna linger on on this field. which currently not looking so bright, but it doesnt mean it wont remain the same after 10 years. you get what i mean? its just sooo vague. :/

p/s: but i do think i'd be much more happier doing freelance even if that means earning uncertain income. *gasp* 

thanks anyways :)

Thanks ammie,

:)))

hearing from you is always, always comforting!

kinda like a motherly figure. teehee.

i <33

Thank you amane unnie,

:)) i really hope i'm as focused as you are!

and special thanks to kimchi unnie, who texted me during work.

i almost wanna cry right then! which of course i did not because, wtf, if anyone cried just all of a sudden at workplace, it would either mean (1) something bad has happened. or (2) she must have HAVE some kinda mental disorder. I'm not any of those. 

Thanks unnie, i really appreciate that! <33

& also to someone surprise: Lester yong.

hahahah... damn random. he's the first actually, who "just found out" about my blog, coincidently an hour after i posted it or so.

Thank you, chatting with you was fun, really made me bright again for a while. :))

i miss you!

***

btw, I was MIA again didnt I? :P

apologize if anyone was worried. i love all of you!

so what happened in the last week?

okay let me recall. I've had a good thursday 30th. By joining kent and his amazing ex-colleagues for dinner at FRIDAYS in conjunction of kent's farewell and his colleague's  birthday. I had so much fun, i was talking, laughing, gawking and listening to so many fascinating stories, it made me realize how long i've not been around People. I was truly contented that i didnt wanna go home, but i have to cause i was driving. Oh, and i got my pay check. its just a mere rm700, but i feel damn good its time to shop! lol.

Then it was friday the 1st, and i was thankful that i have a job because its the FIRST TIME i was sooooo effing happy its 1st of May!! i even double confirmed that it is LABOUR DAY a week before. dork i know, but i've never took notice in labour day cause student's life has be truly wondrous. <333>i spent the wonderful holiday by playing The Sims2 ALL DAY. 

kinda pathetic but i dont care i was having sooo much fun. lol. 

and its kinda funny at times like this cause it would suddenly seem i've switch role with the boyfriend: Me with the games while he desperately try to get me off it, that he've given up. then complains "You're happier when you see them (my sims) than you see me". LOL. I love him.

Saturday 2nd, had family brunch, which i missed. [i dont know where i've been. i'm talking like i havent meet real people for a year or something :X ] then Qing and I went to Cineleisure for the warehouse sales which of course just bores me because, they rarely have my size and they dont have a fitting room. so suck with it. i was too busy disgusted by the venue and scary ppl to concentrate on browsing anyway. oh this i have to rant, they just rented a shop size, and thank you whoever that was, the finishing of the lot was EWWWW-ishly-unbelievable-believe-it, they had a platform (for godknowswhy) and the flooring was deteriorating rendered cement only. and poor-poor-poor lighting. I know its just a warehouse sales, its supposed to be cheap. but please dont hold anymore events like this, indoor or with restricted area. it was truly a fuss to move from point A to point B eventho it really was just at the end of the aisle, the orientation would be filed into a  "one way traffic" to accommodate the ppl let in, and when someone from the line "park" to browse. yes you get "traffic jam". its an even more pathetic way to waste time than hanging with my sims. you get the idea. 0:) Anyways, I later watch Make it Happen. my review: the show is HOT! Cathay is not. kinda shocking that cathay only lets ppl in at the ticket printed time, so that means they dont start the show on-time. *swt*

Sunday 3rd. I dont know which switch of me went wrong, but i know i was extremely snappy that day. I just wanted to stay home and do nothing, (usually days like this goes wrong when i'm out) but i couldnt say no to my parents, not after what i felt like i havent seen anyone for so long. so i just tag along and be chauffeur, but to my dismay they picked me to complain about. (-.-) yes it was grrrr-eat! [wtf?!] and i snapped on automobile which only made it worst. and i was pissed, at myself, and at something anyone of the family should not have said to any other of the family under any circumstances. yes it was nasty, but that did not come from me and i seriously could not believe that person said that still. But i guess now i review on it, the person was guilty which was why the person did not make any more comment when i snapped again in the evening over an even smaller issue like making cold noodle sauce. it was laughable, but i snapped. and then i skipped dinner to sulk which was scarily wrong. because i dont just skip my meal for whatever reason to emo. and i dont know why am i emo-ing, i just felt wrong, and somewhere in me just screams this isnt all. it was already 11pm and i was still emo-ing for no reason, and getting ready for bed for the zillionth time because i was choking from snort, and mr.wtf was assuring me nothing's wrong because i just keep saying i dont know whats wrong but there's something wrong with me. then very abruptly i cooled down the same time my mom called for me and my sis. I ignored her and went on to prepare myself for the last time of the night for bed. and i was amazingly slow at it, Qing even manage ran up and down twice before telling me to get ready to visit my grandma (mother's side). which of course i suddenly felt.. lifted and calm. i'm not quite sure if this's what i'm suppose to be feeling. but thats what i felt. i think its the numbness from all the departures i'm secondary linked or so. there was no more tears later on. and I just prayed that she be lifted off all her pain please. Grandma didnt look good, she slept/was unconscious contorted-ly, with her right hand in a truly discomfort way, I couldnt bare to look. They was saying by the way it looks, she shouldnt be able to live for another 24 hours.

Monday 4th. work.

Tuesday 5th. I feel extremely good at about 4+pm. kinda a surprise cause i dont even feel bright when i leave work at 6+ on workdays. and its tuesday, i usually only feel the happiness on thursday cause friday's the last day of work week. but anyways just got on with work and went back to an empty home, with full cars. which was when i started questioning whats the festival. Later, mom got home, told me grandma moved on, and i dont remember being stunt. I guess i did handled it pretty well, didnt i? :) 

& we went to see grandma for her first final respect.

the miracle of it all? grandma passed on at around the same time i was suddenly lifted.

Wednesday 6th. work. 2nd final respect, chanting and etc to ease grandma's crossover to the other world. I was a little upset bout the whole procedure cause we'd be burying her on the next day; so its just a total of 3 or less days ceremony, it may seem long to certain ppl, but it appears scarily fast for me to handle, and that saddens me. But when i saw her for the last time this night, she was beginning to turn grey/green, and that scared me. But there was alot of miracle this night. First, the weather was not exactly windy, just a little cool, but when we burned those paper houses, servants, kaching and etc, despite the HUGEEE fire roaring, it was not HOT. instead, a very comforting warmth, and its quite amazing at how those remnants of burning material/fire pieces flew high into the sky... creating a magically beautiful scene rather than something scary and sad. It was rather unbelievable.

& that was not all. When i slept that night, i dreamt of a very very very very happy dog, she was a yellow, local stray dog, who's sooo soo happy her happiness is influential. running/skip/dancing (how happy dogs run and jump) from the place we burned the paper house towards where grandma used to live. and everyone who saw her, may it be people or dogs would join in the celebration. Okay, dog, because i was reading a PAWS email about pulau ketam strays before i sleep. But i presume grandma's now much happier than she was. :))

Do not bullcrap me with "dreams are opposite of whats real". I dont believe in that saying, i guess the proper sentence for it should be "reality is never as nice as dream".

Thursday 7th. when we all return to earth -slash- Burial.

& thats it. Fast aint it?

Dont worry, really i'm not feeling any down right now.

I've grown up! :)

Goodbye grandma.

I love you. :)

- Faye

feeling extremely low...

i could pass as being non-existent.

:((

**
i suppose i should elaborate.

Work. makes me realize that i have learnt nothing from my 3 years with Taylors. Failure.

Friends. makes me realize i am quite a loner. Failure.

Architecture. makes me realize I am in no way gifted for this & damn tempted to just go burn myself to death. what a tragic way to die. Failure for being ungifted. Failure for thinking bout death.

Money. makes me realize Architecture is NOT the way to earn bucks. & tempted again to just disappear. Failure cause money > interest = architectureFAIL. Failure again for thinking bout vanishing.

Decision. makes me realize I AM NOTHING cause i cannot conclude. -1 Failure, cause i am disappearing, literally.

mr. mbp. makes me realize i need it even when i'm not using it. failure for being so dependent.

....

the reason i am so down these days:-
- an uncle passed away on friday the 10th.
- peggy's grandma passed away on sunday the 12th.
- i am very bad at departures.
- i am still negative on continuing a course that would not let me earn and spend as i like. wtffffffff.. i can seriously kill myself for living as if i'm in poverty already. fuck architecture. fuck internship.
- I just got into a car accident on monday the 20th. it was tragic. the other car who hit me by trying to cut into my lane very suddenly, ended up in the opposite direction road, it went riding over that huge divider into the opposite direction. Thankfully there was little to no cars; the driver was safe. It was NOT my fault. I was not hurt or anything, only my car bumper was dented. but i was shocked. and scared. and i stop my car. and started weeping. and jitter. i felt lost. I couldnt even get out of the car, all i did was cry, cuss and hope that someone pick up their phone. and that crazy driver would not come over. and decided that I am a scaredy cat afterall.
- I go to work feeling extremely useless, and demotivated.
- I go to work looking at the same site plan and could not develope.
- I go to work each day feeling even lower than the day before for still not able to imagine fancy ideas and concept. I just fidget with the dead geometrical shapes making it look nice on plans. at the same time, ready to be told "you're very troubled" again. I am indeed. I could not think out of the box. and that is really killing me when all my seniors could run when i stuck fast on the spot. it sucks. period.
- I come home two days in a row to a house with only tweety and the tv set. and dinnerless. I look at my phone. and decide that there's no one i could just call and go over without feeling any less annoying.
- I go to bed each day feeling that i've waste a day's time staring at my project developing nothing. and hated waking up in the morning because it would be the same routine.
- I cringed when my boss sneared "how did you graduate?" when i am totally blur bout "the golden rule". I really did not learn anything from my three years with taylors did i?
- I get emo realizing how uninteresting i am.


...i've wasted 20 years. now what do i do?

If only i'm a computer, i would shut myself down for a few days. and reformat.

- needs time to change.

I was gonna post bout "GOOD FRIDAY"

until i came home...

and mr wtf had to make it bad again.

then i had another news. which is WORST.
*hint*anotherdeparture*

fuck. I HATE DEPARTURES!

i hope i'll be back. gonna go cry with the rain right now.

*depressiondepressiondepression*

*grey grey grey*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA : The story of the eyes that looks with an angle.

** since young **

Friend: Why do you look at people with an angle?
little Lun: I've always been like this..


*elementary school 6..*

Doctor: The formation of your son's cornea have differ slightly in the process, thus he could only look with an angle.


*middle school 3..*

Teacher: Who knows the answer to this question?



*high school..*

Girl: Ah Lun, can you look at me properly, just once?
Ah Lun: Uhm, but i...


*the university entrance examination..*

Ah Lun: ~FINALLY, my chance is here..


~..What I have been planning for 21 years..
*jengJENG*


*//copycopy!!*


... "FINALLY", his position in University IS CONFIRMED.

Moral of the story:
Have DETERMINATION in your dreams, ALWAYS practice what you believe in. Even though there might be times where you are tempted to loosen up, DON'T.
SUCCESS WILL BE IN YOUR GRASP.