Wednesday, August 27, 2008

by George Carlin.

recieved this in an e-mail.
to true and appropriate to not share.

The paradox of our time in history is that
we have taller buildings but shorter tempers,
wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less,
we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families,
more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense,
more knowledge, but less judgment,
more experts, yet more problems,
more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much,

smoke too much,
spend too recklessly,
laugh too little,
drive too fast,
get too angry,
stay up too late,
get up too tired,
read too little,
watch TV too much,
and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.

We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,

big men and small character,
steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce,
fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Live a pleasing life to God.

George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's


not that i want to.

I think i have problem expressing.
presentation wise i could speak, but when it comes to translating my design, expressing my ideas and that sort. i dont know, i suck bad. and i get really disappointed at myself. which sucks double.

blame PMS.

hmm.. losing senses agian.
kent stated to me that i always ALWAYS lose the topic. DAMN FAR.
well, this i admit, even in everyday's life, i can pretty much leave a topic without noticing. tee hee.
but NOW it suck. so bad.
because its my final sem and i'm still shitty.
because i have no fucking idea how to get back, 1 thing i know is that i like my design appearance, and its now shit because i have no solid back up point. wohoo~ i've once again made pretty things into shits!

and its seem pretty obvious to:
a- ditch the design and start from stracth;
b- think of a fucking strong point to back it up.

easy-peesy choices yes?
NO. coz i really like the design, and i really think it would work, just that i really have to relate it back to site.

then just go with plan b. =.=
i tried. with a concept i thought was so strong coz it was so much related to human, it was easy to understand.
and i got banned again. =.=

and i disappoint myself again.

no i do not blame my tutor, what he said made perfect sense. how did it relate to the site again? why this shape? you've got to have a stronger point to support your design. you MUST have reasons. you MUST have more confident in yourself, your design.

and that last one hits right on spot more than anything else. through college, every lecturer have been really supportive, ensuring me that i have talent, that if i really had my mind into it i could have a really good, strong design.

but.. gonna repeat for the 3rd time in coll.
i'm gonna produce shit because i have no fucking strong concept, nor site respond.
i have no supportive reason to it. eventhough i thought i was linking, its usually not.
i couldnt live up to the expectations.
and i get frustrated for disappointing myself again.
they have been perfectly kind, and i'm shit.


why am i such a shit? why cant i do better? how to upgrade myself? how to think and interprate in a more complicated sense? how to link every shitsthings up together so that it form a stronger story/concept/idea? how to be more expressive? why am i just so incapable in this course i chose? how to increase confidence in myself? why do i always lose sense? why am i such a dissapointment? why is my brain so small and useless? why am i so emotional? really, why do i always wander away the main topic?


not nice.

and i dont think its stress.

it is definately ME.


Saturday, August 23, 2008

Dear Lee Eon, Rest in peace.



Name: 이언 / Lee Un (Lee Eon)
Real name: 박상민 / Park Sang Min
Profession: Actor and model
Birthdate: 1981-Feb-05
Date of death: 2008-Aug-21
Height: 188cm
Weight: 77kg
Star sign: Aquarius

Strongest Chil Woo (KBS2, 2008)
Who Are You? (MBC, 2008)
The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince (MBC, 2007)
When Spring Comes (KBS2, 2007)

- credits: DramaWiki.

I really like him in Coffee Prince, its just so hard to believe he's gone. :(
only age 27.
his life practically, "just got started". there was much more for him to do.
gosh. this is so sad!
i'm gonna miss him, my favouritest coffee prince. ;(

link 1:
link 2:


My First, not quite anticipated birthday :(

Never in my rustyliving memory have i NOT anticipate the arrival of my birthday. Every year, i would get excited at least 2 weeks before and practically be in my best mood until 1st september. LOL.
and my birthdays were never a "just one day" kinda thing. it could last a week or even 48 hours to the min.
haha. i know it is a little self-contended, but really, birthdays are the happiest event [followed closely by christmas *cheers*], may it be mine or my beloved ones. :D
therefore i've always ALWAYS, anticipated birthdays, especially mine! *sinister laugh* -dont ask me why, because i'm evil, you know that dont you? ;)

my 19-turning-20 birthday.
the very birthday which declares i am no more a teenage,
is when i am forbidded to plan ahead. :(
not fun lah!

cis. me no likey assignments, especially on my birthday!

* * *

anyways, thanks shann, shirley, (har)^2, seth and nicole for jogoya ;)
it was a very satisfying meal. hahahahaha.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

the house is quiet again.


Jie went back di.

finally i have my bed all to myself again, but the house is really damn quiet without her.
i miss her constant complains, her bossy attitude, her calling for "tweety", her annoying everyone, her clubbing nights, her crazily scary "asian" driving skill, her cheerful face, her pissed face, her not-so-nice comments, her san jose, san fransisco, santa cruz, chicago, n.y. stories. her crazy yet interesting friends' stories. her constant complains. and definately not forgetting HER helping me with the HOUSE CHORES.
i wanna go to the states, stay at her place and do nothing but annoy her.

without mom. haha.


even tweety is so bored he's playing with the flowers again.

gosh i am so bored.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Yay college!

4th week through Sem 6.
not easy, but at least i'm still having fun. :)

Studio. Environmental Science. Integrated Project.

Not much about the subjects, as i think as nice as they are right now, is gonna turn nasty by the weeks. Normal. :)

but what suprise me most is, it was only 3 weeks, and there was already so many twisted stories going about. all hail architecture students, this prove we're all still smooth sailing. haha.

anyways, let me update you with my first week outing with tin, to FISHO... i'm not quite sure if thats the name, its the FISH SPA~ *ignorance*

it was really impromtu when tin suddenly came up with the idea on our way to J Co., and i'm glad she got me to go with it(fish spa) because it was really something new! eventho it was rm38 for half an hour. *bleeds*; still worth the experiece, i absolutely love it! x)

Little Fishes~
[[My legs]]

i couldnt get a pic of her (tin's) legs with the fishes because she just cant stop laughing!

definately tickling tin. ;)

finally, some distraction. haha.

and we proceeded to the bigger fishies.

pretty no? but they were a little ganas, and it kinda hurts when they nibbled. dont know about you. :D

and it definately proves shirley's comment right:
NOT to go fish spa-ing with shu fei.

I STEAL ALL FISHES! xD *sinister laugh*

^ [[mine]]

< [[tin's]]

i'm sorry tin, for stealing your fishes. haha. ;P

and after the detour,! wee~

oww greentea, i absolutely LOVE YOU! *bites*

♥ :)

me likey the day!
thanks tin! ;)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I hate my dog, lucky!

NOT. its a love-hate relationship. 8

i dont know if its only my pincher, but lucky is one hella egoistic dog.
he really thinks he OWNS the street, i think he secretly hopes its the whole garden, but its just too large for that little dog to handle. HAHA!

Anyways, as you may not know, my family dont have the habit of walking the dog, so we usually just let them out to run/shit/whatnot on real odd hours, like 12pm, or 3pm, sometimes 8pm. See, during odd hours, we dont have to keep them on leashes, cause there wont be any other dogs around, and my dogs really prefer it that way too. :D

But today, mom let him (lucky) out at like 6pm without notice.
when ppl ARE walking their dogs.
I was washing the car. In an old swimsuit top and ugly shorts, because i dont like the feeling of wet big T-shirt on me. in short, VERY UGLY. car wash only mah.
suppose mom let him out before that, i didnt know.
and there came the boy with his pincher,
and lucky went like grr...
at first heard, i thought he was within the boundary and didnt bothered much.
then came then second grr.. with a woof. very tame version.
and i begin to wonder where's my dog, cause if he's within the boundary he would be running along the fences ganas.
then i heard like shoo-animals-foot-stomping-ground sound. not cool.
and against all wants to NOT leave the boundary, come on i AM in the ugliest attire i may find *die* i was forced to because that stupid dog really thinks he owns the street, and i suppose if i understand dog language lucky'll be asking for some trepass-doggytreats while the other one was like "damn you fat boy, you dont own the street, bite me!" cause by then both dogs is already grr... WOOF WOOF! GRRRR...
thus the unwanted need to go get him back.
and if that wasnt bad enough. read this.
I couldn't catch that sneaky little thing.
see, he's so smart he've mastered the "lower body, speed up limbs" trick that he could "drift".
I am seriuos. there's minimal chances of catching that dog when he drifts, unless you have like other distraction like dogs or treats.
and there's no time to even go get doggy treats at times like this.
look damn stupid loh, cannot even catch my own dog. wtf *dies 2nd time*
that boy was nice enough to distract lucky with his dog, eventhough i believe it was not his intention. haha. but fuck lah, i look damn pathetic. SIAAAAAAA.
which i later took revenge in bathing the dog. MWAHAHAHAHA.

oh yes, main point.
that boy was quite cute.
on my rate of 1 to 10, he gets a good 6. tall, fair, and sweet looking.
anyways back to topic, i then came back to complain to qing about that stupid dog.
and she told me an even more embarassing story.
*slams head* i suppose he was treatened by size but still have to stand his title of HEAD OF STREET. but wtf. he was trying to fight against a golden retriever when that other dog didnt even seem to bother as qing describe. *sweats*

All in all, i love my dear lucky for being the sweet "tai lou" of the house, and the forever need of affection.
but i hate him for causing chaos whenever the motor or dogs passes by. XIAAAA.
when will i bring that dog to understand he dont OWN the street? :/