Emo.

=(

I dont know anymore.

i dont know why am i feeling this way,
i dont know why am i thinking this way,
i dont know where am i heading,
i dont know who i am anymore,


i just feel dark.

To my abanboned blog:

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
or should it be Happy Birthday?

lol.. now i feel guilty. when was the last time i post?? 12JAN! lol, i'm sorry 0=P
now i feel weird, it feels like the blog is an individual, and i'm seriously apologizing to it.. maybe its because its partially coughchangmincough's, maybe its because i'm a sucky blogger, or maybe its because changmin's such a perfectionist, hardworker and i'm a shytty blogger, procrastinator no doubt =X

ah! i thought i would have nothing to blog, but i have to say i'm starting to grow fond of Girls Generation, i dont care if i'm gay listening to pop, cute, small girls' music, but i just want to take back my words as to HOW MUCH I HATE GIRLS GENERATION because they're so fakely "innocent" marketed. I dont know if they're still fake, i'm purely judging them by their only album. Anyways, after listening to their music, i must agree that they can sing, but then again, which debuted SM couldnt? (except for that one group, which i dont even know =C i pity them) you have to admit that damn company is pretty smart in business. Its not only "producing" its "MONEY SUCKING"! look at TVXQ, look at poor BoA, look at only13, look a LEE SOO MAN!
btw have you heard about TVXQ FANCLUB, namely Cassiopeia got into the random book of GUINNESS WORLD RECORD? just because they have the largest amount of fans. like 80,000 i think. Omgness RANDOM! [yes i know i've told you, my closer friends about this, but still i'm doing so NOW because I'M GONNA BE SERIOUSLY ABOUT BOYCOTTING SM!] my boys arent gonna starve without my support. *flies*
no point in making Mr. Lee Soo Man richer, and myself miserable yes?
*nods franticly*

btw, i was in penang last weekend, burning my skin off literally, and skipping out penang food, wtf we dint even eat charkueytiao, laksa, pork porridge, rojak and whatever nots "penang delicacies" HAWKER! =.= sien
Even given that i WAS there the week before, those ARE the included in the list of food i did NOT eat =.= *failure
seriously, we need C.A.R. and thats another bullpoo to future architects coz we are suppose to be "sustainable products supporter" and/or in a way "the inventor". well i'm not saying that other fields should and/or dont have to do so(preserving the environment) but it just feels like I'm a Friggin HYPOCRITE because i talk about how i want to do this this this, but i'm still depending SO MUCH on automobile-burning fuels, the computer-electricity, OVERNIGHT ASSIGNMENTS-more electric waste, etcetc you get what i'm tryin to explain. and gosh all these hypocrite-ies are making me insane i'm starting to learn myself NOT QUIET anymore. a little bit too naggish actually.
and thats sad. =(

goodness i'm drifting again. OKAY! back to my point. WHY is there never bicycles to rent in tourist spot? seriously! i was based in Georgetown. more specifically Jalan Chulia, and its so frigginly LONG that we couldnt find food within like.. 30minutes? by foot. =.= SO TIRING!
therefore, in my new assignment, i'm gonna built a BICYCLE VISITOR CENTRE! lol.. i know it sounds not exactly cool, but i just want to revive this activity, do you know just HOW fun it is to ride bikes? espeacially if you're touring. it's just the best way to get around, coz you wouldnt have to pay the dumb taxies by 10s, can move a little faster than walking - saves time, yet a little slower than cars - allows one to absorb everything needed, stands less space - allows stopping anywhere, anytime, and its just purely FUN! dont you agree?? 0=D

well so much for now~
and before the day pass, before i miss it..

HAPPY 18TH OF FEB~ <33
love is still in the air ;)

heehee.

I think these are made especially for us =)

Eiko unnie and me:




Shann and me:



shann's the brunette 'cause i'm the obvious blonde; and the bond is of a load of shits. LOL. wt*





and to my other friends,
dont feel left out because i cant find the right quote,
...

okay maybe this one





You know i love you dont you? =D *huggles*


Credits:
DollieCrave

I'm so proud <33 i'm a goddamn fan.

In conjunction of Eiko's iloveELF post.

I found this...

[TVXQ Member Quietly Joins Taean Cleanup]
2008-01-03

ChoiKang Changmin, better known as Max of Korea’s hottest idol group TVXQ, has quietly lent a helping hand to Taean County devastated by the nation’s worst oil spill last month.

His secret volunteer work was revealed when a volunteer posted his sighting of Changmin on the TVXQ fan site. The person who saw Changmin wrote on the posting that it was a big surprise to find Changmin among the volunteers. The weather down in Taean had been cold and snowy, but Changmin and his father joined other volunteers in cleaning up the oil. The posting said that since no other TVXQ members were in sight, Changmin must have come to Taean by himself.

TVXQ had spent most of their time in Japan last year, but returned to Korea for a short New Year’s break. TVXQ’s agent confirmed that Changmin had been in Taean for volunteer work on his first day back from Japan. He was not accompanied by other members.


credits: bww2> source: KBS WORLD






need i say more? *floats*

QUOTE.

from JS

Most improved friend:
Shu Fei *cute hotness*

LOL.. wth that means.. its fresh. thanks bro =D



btw have ANYONE clicked on that ELF yourself clip?? *points down/post before*

crap, i'm like SOOOOO "seeking attention", cause it looks like NO ONE did. boohoo. =(
its SUPPOSED to be EVERYONE's "CHRISTMAS greetings" from me, done by my sister. ishh.. so tak syok lah ppl dint notice, even worst those who saw but dint leave comment (eventho i know you're most probably out of words, but come on lah "give face" lah sikit.)






ANYWAYS, I AM BACK FROM CHINA!!
and....
*-pstt. china sucks coz they block blogspot. and i am SOO left out! >:(


HAPPY NEW YEAR MY LOVELY ONES~ =D
red because i love them.
eventho still among my new year resolution: boycott SM. *sticksouttongue*

happy christmas and a joyful new year to all ;)

take care! i'm off to the airport now..

ELF yourself ;)

Enjoy.
and be good.
buhbye.

happy birthday to mayyee unnie, 19th dec.
and kacy, 22nd dec. *huggles*

.had a wonderful day =) happy birthdays <33

even though blogging daily schedules are like the most lame thing on earth, but i have to say that i enjoyed every bit today. =)

K-session at the curve with my beloved eiko unnie, samsoonie, kacy, and Qing. and eventhough i myself have sang out of tune//slash//out of breath several times, Qing as amazing and loud as usual, unnie as knowledgeable as usual, kacy and samsoonie as fun as usual, its really really fun.
all it lacks of is our beloved "jjangriin"-amane unnie!

ookay. this is lame.
so overall what i did today is.

9.15am
kacy texted: hey you wake up adi?
faye replied: ya. *goes back to sleep*

9.30am
mom knocks on door, shouts: there's gonna be a blackout at 10am, better be quick!
me (thinks): O_O wtf? no heater? *drags self off bed*

10.10am
Officially awake after the 1st few drops of cold water fresh pour of shower.

10.29am
kacy texted: one more traffic light and i'll be at ur place.
faye replied: i'm not done yet.. you come in 1st lah.. (freakin mo-so i admit, thats one of the damn habit that possesses me especially in the morning)

10.40am
faye screams: omgomg i dont have a belt!
kacy stares, then reply: i have one, but i'm wearing it.
faye runs around the 1st floor in search for a decent belt to pair.
kacy stares.

10.49am
kacy: wah, 11am singK, 11am leave home?
faye: HOW TO STYLE THIS HAIR?! *jabs franticly at hair with lucido-L*
kacy grabs lucido-L, loreal hair mousse, hair curler and start strutting her stuff-my hair.
faye: *WOW*

11.27am
woohoo. finally reach the curve.
and i miraculously ONLY FOUND OUT I OWN A SPEAKER PHONE. like after one and a half years? *scaredtheshitoutofmeshock*

11.40am, 12.10pm, 12.35pm, 12.54pm, 1.23pm, 1.48pm
TIMELESS, 이별은 아니죠 한번의 삶이라면 지금 뿐인데~ FOREVER IN MY HEART, FOREVER IN MY MIND~ TALE AS OLD AS TIME, SONG AS OLD AS RYME~
etc etc etc...

1.59pm
eiko, samsoonie, qing, kacy, faye: HUH? FINISH DI?!
....
eiko: I DONT CARE COME LETS SING TIMELESS!
faye: TIMELESS, *together*이별은 아니죠 한번의 삶이라면 지금 뿐인데~...
....
samsoonie, qing and kacy watchin girl fight clip.

2.04pm
eiko *goes infront of them* : tell me tell me, dadaladala tell me~ *dances*
faye, kacy *tries to follow steps*
...
samsoonie, qing *watches vid on phone*: wahh.. WAHHHH...
...
faye and kacy busybody trying to watch the clip together.

K-session conclusion














"posing ni" LOL.

**********

2.50pm
fooling around doing nothing spectacular around eiko unnie's house.

3.12pm
OKOK! LETS BAKE!
[samsoonie] the decent baker/whisk-er.
[faye] the machinary whisk-er.
[eiko] the in-and-out of kitchen-er.
[kacy, qing] the sitaroundkitchencounter,iwannahelptoo look-er

3.28pm
[all] woohoo woohoo! its done its done!
faye: Wah.. WAH.. *hand sprangs for one cupcake*
samsoonie *save cupcake from faye*
faye *sulks back to unnie's side*
eiko: how about we share one first?
faye's eyes brighten with hope =D
mwehehehehe.. thank you unnie!
and the cupcake really tasted GOOOD ^^

3.40pm
okok.. lets do the choc frosting!

3.56pm
okok lets do the icing!
...
icing turns out watery.. =.="

4.10pm
samsoonie: lets put it into the oven to "evaporate" the excessive water
eiko: put into the freezer!
...
conclusion: put into freezer.

4.30pm
kacy, faye, qing *Xbox-ing*
samsoonie: DONT FORGET ABOUT OUR CUPCAKES!
faye: OH YA! *runs back to kitchen*

4.45pm
faye, samsoonie, eiko: WAH!! ITS MELTING! FASTER FASTER!!
samsoonie *transfer cupcakes to fridge*
...
*takes cupcakes back out*
eiko, faye, samsoonie: EEE.. whats that?

4.50pm
eiko, faye *modify bigapple box*

5.00pm
eiko: ITS 5pm DII. LETS GO LETS GO!
faye: O_O yes yes. LETS GO!

5.10pm
*infront of amane's house*
mwehehehehe..
...
*upon going upstairs*
*excitement!*
...
samsoon's 1st attempt to "knock out" amane's door very yeng-ly... failed.
eiko *pushes open slowly.. and stuff faye in*
...
[amane] *stares*
[faye] O_O
[eiko, samsoonie, kacy, qing] .... *still outside of the room*
[faye] O_O
[amane] *stares*
[everybody].....
...after several awkward seconds that feels like minutes...
[eiko&samsoon] happy birthday~~

셍일축하해요요요요요요요~
언니, 사랑해요 알시죠? ;)
꼭행복하새요~ 화이팅!! *초-*
ericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmunericmun

**********

night.
dinner/supper/yumcha session with the soon to be gone tracy ong.
adios sista.
may you have a holy christmas and wonderful year ahead!
have fun when you're gone!
take care ;)

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ok. so this isnt "overall"; its "exactly"!
it may not seem exciting to all of you but i seriously had fun, every single minute of the day.. just being around some of my most favourite people, and the process of making something for another favourite character =D
even the scaryawkward moments when i was pushed into a room greeted by a pair of serious eyes.
and yes i need my sleep now.
good night. =)